My Passion
1
I don’t belong here, I know it
But only say you love me
And my heart soars, quivers
Each word, each syllable impacting, moving me
From all that’s practical, real around me
To the warmness that is you.
In your soul I’ll nestle, shielded, huddled
So much power has your love, that your words
At the first sound makes me tremble
All ensconced with joy and bliss
Like the magic prince
One kiss upon your supple lips
The parting of your smile
I beg you please, three small words
My kingdom for the taking
2
So many faces, events, the “stuff”
That makes me who I am
My heart on fire…I pray
But the phone rings and I think of you
Empty now the bed we shared
Empty my embrace, my arms outstretched
And in the room, bodies come and go
I stay, now alone in every way
Life goes on but I hold back
The void of love, in deep sorrows I lack
My need for you
But you are gone, your heart in check
To meet new faces, see new places
Leaving me behind… waiting, wanting
Looking at the bed and the pillow
That caressed your head beside me
Yearning for the touch, one more kiss
Before departing, missing you.
And so I yield the mighty pen
That makes me who I am
And as I surrender to your memory
I am so alone, I search for words
And when they come,
It’s you and you alone, I miss you so.
3
My life is an ocean, rippling waves
Lapping at your feet
Rising, falling in the restless tides
That wonderful pacifying sound
Ocean meets shore, You are my shore
The never-ending reaching for you, my land
In this our place bound by time
All my soul dispersed in myriad waves
Each lapping, cursing your indifference
And sometimes a glassy calm,
That quickly ripples into a thousand mirrors
Each reflecting your eyes that haunt me still, and
Your smile that melts me to the shallows
Of the rocky shores and reefs that only now
I see with tear filled eyes
Then into this uncertain chaos,
The breathless wind of your sighs
Whirling all the untamed waters that you dread
There, lost in fertile valleys
I am no more,
What a curious thing
For one who was an island, a rock of ages
I now exist only as part of you
Embracing the thought of you
While outside, only smiles appear.
3
How deeply felt,
How deeply felt…
Measured by the impossibility of expression
----A sunset and a sunrise from my bedroom
----The first snow, kissing the windowpanes
----A tree stripped naked in the very moment you
chance to glance its way, then trembling, poor sycamore
covered with crystal drops of ice, too soon gone.
Evergreen would be a bore!
Mariachis strolling in the dark,
A lovely voice soaring like a lark
Or violins, tugging at your heart
Or a big brass band
Trumpets, clarinets, trombones, backed by
Deep voiced drums
The sweet sounds of music, and Oh so many more
How they fill my soul, soothe my pain
I revel in the earth,
My spirit lifted for the glorious
Homebound flight
And what is heaven but earth entire
Pure of heart and full of faith
When at last my heart shall break in two,
And free at last, encompass all of you.
4
I thank you for my soul, my love
I came within a breath of losing all
Raising the devil’s curtain on our stage
Softly unveiling the proscenium
From where I stood exposed under the lights, trembling
Against the cold, grey breath of death
Penitent, screaming to the Lord.
Oh! How we strain our lifeline
When we clutch the weight of sin.
Enclosed in my humanity,
My vision narrows,
Then a ray of light comes streaming
Crazed and wild, focused
Rapier pointed
My soul impaled on the blank naked, wall of fear
It surrounds in darkness, it consumed me
There I stood, trembling on the light-hook
Deserted, except for your love and will
And as I drowned enclosed in my humanity
A voice,
I followed, I listened, I ate, I drank
I am free, I am healed, I am loved.
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